When I started this blog, I didn't want it to turn into a sad, venting blog at all. After all, my name is Merry, Morose and Mired musings, not just Morose Musings! I have so much to say and think about that is not related to this abomination called shidduchim. This is partly why I have deleted my first entry- Who am I? It was written when I was having a night of singles blues. I don't want to be defined as, "that girl in shidduchim." I have so many other interests, opinions and ideas floating around my head. But this past month, was a really hard one shidduchimwise. So, just to warn you, this post has a bit of a melancholy ring to it.
This past month I was "busy." And it felt so good. I think it is just amazing how when you date, you are in a different realm. It is the plane that is flying in the radiant sun, above the foggy skies, as SIS once referred to in one of her posts. And then when it is over, and you are back to being single and dateless, you go plummeting back down to the cold, grey clouds.
Anyways, that is how I felt the past month. This past month was hectic and very, very emotionally draining. I was dating and I really thought that there was potential for a relationship, but it ended. Then right after that, a boy I had dated seriously two years ago got engaged to a (younger) neighbor. They look adorable together, but it hurts that it's in my face. It was a lot to handle. I was left feeling very lonely.
But I just need to remember that sooner or later the plane will soar into the sun again and there will be good times and happiness in store. By all of us!!
